to the bestest friend one could have since secondary 1, happy 18th birthday to you!

this girl is possibly the sweetest, most constant friend i have in my life. Days in dhs where we stuck like glue to each other, and even though we see each other so much lesser now, i know nothing changes. I LOVE YOU MICHELLE!

now on to what HS and I planned :>

: surprised her 12am saturday morning at her house with faulty lighter and noisy niece (w/o pyjamas thanks t hs!) presents cards and then aloy the next morning with puzzle. simple as it seems i had to squeeze in evry possible time this week to shop for her difficult gift, esp after trainings, at night where we were competing whether shops close faster or we can buy faster haha. i lost my phone then too, and found it at th UGLYDOLL shop thats very likely cursed. prata breakfast and a good catchup during the night. Hs and i are the best. mich and hs are the best friends i can ask for, period.

and no use feeling unhappy over other friendships that i dont see any effort put into. so just fuck that :)

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the past week was almost the same as any other. Only that im deterined to go for NYLF and i hope that monica will be the last of my problems. better let me pass! im already picturing myself there and all the goodness that comes along with it. better no get my hopes too high.

annnnd, im asking myself if all these is worth the effort. my biggest burden and yet the least fulfilling. feel so stuck and helpless and fucked up. i hate the feeling. and im praying for an answer. so please tell me what to do.

had JTS at fish and co friday night, sushi tel for family lunch yesterday, went to arab street and simlim camera hunting today with dum (for once that shopping noob can lead :>). now onto another draining week. hang in there carmen!

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